Life

Good Afternoon from the Underground Bunker here on the Mountain in Upstate New York. 
Today is December 16, 2011 at 1453 hrs.  I am not listening to any of my radio transmitters right now. I'm just lying on my bed and looking out my window with my thoughts racing in my head. 

The weather is 42*F outside and grey skies are above me and it feels like rain but quite possible can turn to snow if the temperature drops a little more.

Why are we here? What is the meaning of life? Does it end when we die? Yesterday I wrote about the Blind Man in John 9 and maybe in that passage and like many passages in the Bible it shows us that we must believe. We should wash the clay away and open our eyes.  The miracles that Jesus performed were definite works of God and by no human being. Our faith must be established through him. We must focus our mind and bodies.

Our brain and body are the vehicles in which we are given to navigate in this physical world but FAITH in God is the fuel that drives us to become better people. As I am getting older I realize that life isn't about getting the things we "want" because once we get them it does not fulfill you. Life is about being happy and loving the ones you are with and just being a good person with high morals and integrity. I believe this life is like "boot camp" and only the strong willed and faithful survive.

We are here not for a test because think about it why does God need to test us? He knows the answers!! The book of life has those who are chosen already written in it but some are not ready yet.  Just like when you put something in an oven to cook, it is "not ready to serve". The thing you put in in the beginning of the cooking stage is the same as the end of the cooking stage but when the bell rings to the oven the meal is "ready to serve!". And also with God there is no such thing as a timer so it could take a persons whole life or it could take a split second after conception in the womb.

If you think about it for some people training and " being ready to serve" or "being in boot camp" is the only thing that is plausible. Positions or Jobs which deal with human life, money or even the Arts (Military,Police,Dr,Lawers,Stocks Brokers,Musicians) are highly trained in their craft and go through vigorous training and schooling.

And sometimes a genius comes along and debunks that train of thought and have no need for training and this is because their talents are God given.  These persons who are genius at what they do is a reminder to us that God can do all things at all times and sometimes for the chosen training is not needed because they are blessed from the beginning with "God given talents".

Just was thinking and decided to write. Like always, stay safe and be smart. Thanks for reading my blog.

                                        -Blogger X

The Blind Man

Good Evening from the Underground Bunker here in Upstate New York.  The time is 1948 hrs on December 15, 2011.  I am listening to my Yaesu 2900 2m Band Radio scanning the local repeater systems as well as my Bearcat BC350A scanner.  


Well my friends 2011 is approaching its end and we are looking at the new year of 2012!  Is this the beginning of the end of the world as we know it?  We shall soon see!


I have not been writing on my Blog because I have been reading and studying the Bible for the past couple of days.  Like many people I started to read the Bible but never finished mainly because I did not have a good starting point or references to help me.  I felt like I started in the middle of a story even when I started at Genesis 1.  The Bible has to be the words of God because of how all 66 books feel like one.  I admit that if you are not focused you cannot find it but if you put your mind to reading the Word you will definitely find your way.  Believe me just give it a chance and you will be enlightened to who God is and what our purpose is.  In my opinion it is best to start with the four Gospels.  Read John,Luke,Matthew,Mark in that order and proceed reading the New Testament.  I feel it is better to know Jesus and his ministry before you embark on Genesis and the Old Testament.


In my reading of John 9: 1-38 the "Blind Man" shows the utmost faith in the midst of cruel judgment and ridicule from the Pharisees.  Now the man was blind his whole life until Jesus gave him sight.  The lord spat on on the ground and made clay with his saliva and he put the clay on the Blind man eyes and after the blind man washed it off he had his sight.  This is just the beginning for the Blind Man.  His neighbors whom he lived with his whole life did not believe it was him saying "Is this not he who sat and begged?" and "He looks like him" and all the while the Blind Man said "I am he".  (I feel when a person has changed his life and accepts Jesus Christ not even his neighbors will understand or recognize them)  When the Blind Man told them who had healed him they brought him to the Pharisees.  Here is where the strength in faith comes in.  Now you must understand that in those days people feared the Pharisees.


When the Blind Man who eyes were opened was asked how his eyes were opened and he said to them "He put clay on my eyes and I washed it off and I see".  You must have faith in order to see.  The funny thing is the Pharisees did not believe he was blind so they got his parents to testify and they were afraid and they said "We know that this is our son, and he was born blind; but by what means he now sees we do not know, or who opened his eyes we do not know. He is of age ask him. He will speak for himself."


The Pharisees called Jesus a sinner but he answered-"He did not know, all he knew is that he was blind and now he can see."  Now when the Pharisees asked him again this is when he proclaims his faith and was not frightened.  He answered "I told you already, and you did not listen. why do you want to hear it again? Do you also want to become his disciples?" WOW to be bold to the Pharisees in those days took a strong backbone.  
The Blind Man who now sees also told the Pharisees that God does not hear sinners but if anyone is a worshiper of God and does his will, He hears him.   "IF THIS MAN WERE NOT FROM GOD, HE COULD NOT DO NOTHING." 


The Pharisees then cast him out saying "This man was born in sin and now he is teaching us?"  This man who was blind and now sees was filled with the Spirit and was not afraid to speak his mind to the so called "mighty" Pharisees.  When I read this passage I feel Jesus opens your eyes when you are ready to wash off the clay of disbelieve and sin and when you can see his light you are truly born again!


Merry Christmas everyone be safe and thank you for reading my blog.


                                                                                                                          Blogger X 

The War Stories

 Good late afternoon from the Underground Bunker here in Upstate New York.  It's November 22, 2011 and just got an alert on my Android cell phone for freezing rain for tomorrow starting at 5am-7pm.  I hope that is not the case.  In my opinion freezing rain is more dangerous than snow.  Those who drive in freezing rain probably would agree with that statement. 
  
Today was gloomy wet day.  We had that misty rain this morning and it was cold.  I don't mind the cold if the sun is bright and shining.  This cold and damp weather hurts my bones.  Oh well nothing I can do about it.  I must keep it moving!  I was told a long time ago pain is weakness leaving the body....it sounds logical but when does the weakness run out?


My body is tired, my mind is tired...I'm tired.  The War Stories never seem to stop playing in my mind.  For those who went to war whether it was over seas or even here in the states you should be heard and taken seriously.  To the soldier that dealt with world problems or a domestic soldier (police officer) that has to deal with the problems that no one else wants to deal with if you feel stress or hurt inside seek help for your pain.
  
Because of The War Stories it's hard to sleep at night. I know what happens at night.  Bad things happen at night.  I had to deal with so many horrible events in my career and now that it is suddenly over I feel that I am waiting for something terrible to happen. I have no idea why I feel this way.  Anxiety is tough to deal with. I guess writing is therapy for me.  When will it stop? I don't know... Because of this I write at night.  It takes my mind off the War Stories. 


Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is something that is real and happens to people who deal with the Traumatic events.  Don't be ashamed or think something is wrong with the way you are feeling.  It happens to the toughest people on the planet.  This feeling creeps up on you and takes over your life.  Sometimes people who suffer from PTSD may appear happy to others. People with this problem try to hide or mask their true feelings because they know something is wrong.  That's why it's a total shock to some people when a friend or acquaintance commits suicide.  The happiness is sometimes a front to block the pain and sorrow you feel.  You try to convince yourself that you are happy but this is where the problem lies. You feel that you don't want to be looked at like a problem or worse to have your emotions doubted and scrutinized.  You must confront it and get help your life depends on it! 


 Like always thank you for reading my Blog and if you know someone that has dealt with a painful and shocking event in their lives make sure to really find out if they are OK.  Let them know that if they need help they can come to you.  Stay Smart and Stay Safe! --Blogger X

Light on the wall!!

Good Evening from the Underground Bunker. It's November 20, 2011 at 0016 hrs here in Upstate New York.  Today I decided to take a ride down to NYC with the old man.  It seems like every time I go down there I feel like I caught a cold.  Is that a mental thing or did I really catch something?  I guess I will find out tomorrow...

Have you every had an "Unknown Guest" show up at a function or event  and you asked yourself "who is that?" or "who knows this person and where is he/she from?". This feeling of vulnerability is somewhat...well annoying right? Well this is a true story that I am going to write about tonight. 

It was some years ago when I was a child maybe 10-12 years old when I was still living in Queens with my family.  My dad, brother and I were watching T.V. in the living room. Now let me explain the floor plan of our old house.  Basically the first floor had a "rail road" style layout.  As you walked in the front door we had a small foyer then you walk straight into the living room and then into the dining room and the last room was the kitchen.  We had a staircase in the dinning room that lead to the bedrooms upstairs. We can see the staircase while sitting on the sofa in the living room. Now that the layout has been described listen to what changed my life.

One night my father, brother and I  were watching T.V. in the living room.  My mom was not in the living room with us at the time.  As we were watching T.V. we noticed that the light in my brothers room was on.  We could tell it was on because the dinning room was dark and the light from the bedroom reflected off the staircase wall almost all the way down the staircase.  My father told one of us to go upstairs and turn it off and as we sat there bickering about the light and who was the last one in the room and who's fault it was, we all looked up at the staircase.  In that moment all three of us saw a shadow walk slowly into the room.  In that moment I felt relief that I did not have to go upstairs and interrupt my T.V. show so I yelled "Hey Ma!..turn off the light in the room!" and I could hear a faint response comming from the distance "I'm in the basement washing clothes!".  My father, brother and I just sat there looking at each other and did not say a word for a few seconds until I broke the silence and asked the question "did you guys see that?" And they both answered "yes!" and this was all that was said for quite some time.  The silence seemed like an eternity until my mom came upstairs from the basement.

Still to this day I remember that evening like it was yesterday.  I can close my eyes and see that shadow.  It changed my perspective on life and what happens after it forever. Good night everyone and stay safe out there!!